أَعُوْذُ بِاللهِ مِنَ الشَّـيْطٰنِ الرَّجِيْمِ
Bismillah ir-rahman ir-rahim.
Assalamualaikum wbt
Among the first strong vivid memories i had when i was a child was actually my 5th birthday cake, it was a medium size white creamed butter cake bought from the shop, decorated with colourful jellies on top of it and fancy chocolate rice on the side and a cheerful voice singing so loudly and happily, that as if you can almost feel it with hands. "Happy Birthday to you, Adik!". It was my mother, my favourite person since the begining of my existance. I actually could not recall her face in detail, but i do brought the memories of us to all my restless nights, deep down, i just knew i once, had a mother.
She used to hold my hand and take me with her to the groceries shop where we lived in JB. I could clearly see her knocking the window of my box house, that she creatively made for abang & me, and she sent us a full glass of milk each and a full box of Sultanah's raisins, i still remember the times when she made us take the fish oil capsule, that abang and i would be spitting out into the drain later on. I still remember the day when three of us hands in hands across the flood just to go to the Parkson to get me a beautiful red choengsam for the CNY celebration. But then on the way back i cried because i wanted the doctor's toy set, with all her might, she left us somewhere safe telling to my 7y.o brother, "abang jaga adik!" before she ran into the flood again to get us the play set. I could clearly recall the scene of her crying "oh poor adik", freaked out when she saw my head was bleeding from the accident while playing with abang and the boys on that street where we lived. All i could tell is, when i was with her, it was always warm comfort, laughter and fun that we had.
It was a long 8 years gap ( from i was 5y.o until 13y.o ) of our lonely confused childhood without her cheerful lively laughter and her gentle care and love. We managed to meet for the first time in France, for a month we spent time together - you, Juergen ( her husband ), abang and i. And to add on, another 7 years ( 13y.o until 21y.o ) of life without her by our side. All because of the fate had been written by God the Most-knowing, we were suddenly parted, by the cursed devil who continues whispering evil into man's heart since Adam pbuh.
At the begining, it was not easy for us to get along, but down deep inside both hearts, we were longing and crying for each other for too long. But Alhamdulillah praises to the Almighty the Most Loving,Most Generous, when once he clicked our hearts, we just got better naturally from there and it never stops since then. Countless of blessings upon us, He protected us and safeguarded us in His ways.
So on this special day, this is for you dear mother.
Dear Mama,
You said i am strong, but you don't know that you are 100times stronger. Being a single mother at 24 years old with two small children in a foreign land that you know very little about, with neither family by your side nor supports from far, sounded impossible but you made it the best 5 years of my childhood, but wait when you found that to be very strong, wait until fate had knocked the door and your ultimate strength was actually when you had lost us, after 5 years of feeding us, bathing us, napping us, kissed and hugged us every night, you lost us. Your strength was tested to a level of only few can stay put with themselves, only few chosen, brave ones were tested with such a big test. Mom, thank you for staying put and being so strong when you have all the reasons to give up. Truly God is with those who have patience, and all praises to Him.
All the goodness you see in me today is the reflection of your own goodness. You have such an enormous space in your heart filled with kindness. All your life ( from my own observation ), you had been helping other people, even at the hardest moments of your life, you were so fast in lending the helping hand, being a selfless compassion at your best without any interest of your own. As the result of your kindness, God had taken good care and protected your children in a way that no one can possibly foresee it. Be it at the hard times or the easy life, one hand of yours is always readily reserved to help anyone in need without a second of doubt. You always have the kindness towards the misfortune good people, it is obvious when your friends are mostly the one who get oppressed rather than the oppressors, clearly your heart has neither place for the sick-hearted people nor injustice. Nature speaks itself, kindness will always attracted to its alike and vice versa.
Another trait that everyone can point out when they get to know you is, you are a one very smart woman! My father and your own brothers came to me in person, making a crystal clear statement repeatedly on how brilliant and genius you are since you were small. You can speak minimum 5 languages fluently and another 3 with some difficulties, is perhaps exists only in 1 of ten thousands people. I still remember that french essay ( about blood donation ) you wrote when you were at junior high school, the idea was original, brilliant and beautifully written ( some commentary from mom : this written contest throughout the whole region, all schools entered the contest imposed by the national education contest, and mine was unexpectedly and surprisingly chosen as a winning written essay by the ministry of the education department, due to the very touching content it represented at that time! My french teacher was extremely proud of me, of course! A very nice souvenir in my life now ). Not just from these kind of aspects, you are also very intelligent about the insight of life. You will be the one that come out first to highlight us the efforts of today which will give benefits of tomorrow, and of course your ideas are almost always undeniably out of the box, that it makes people inspired to do the way you do things.
And the trait that i personally admire about you is, you always do the best in everything you do. Be it a common chore, there will always be that 'sophie's twist', you put your thought into, even the smallest thing becomes big by your creativity, artistic imaginations and skillful hands. I can practically see it everywhere, in the food that you cook, your gardening, your sewing, the things you mend, the cards you made me, the handwritting you have, the flowers you arranged, the events that you organized, they are all special, unique and beautiful to me.
Yes, we might have some differences in our belief for the time being, but we fought a little then the next day, you will always be the first to support me. By being respectful to my belief, it shows how respectful and high moral you have on your own. My salute is for you mom! My heart overjoyed that it skipped a beat upon hearing you uttered these : "okey tomorrow we will buy the halal meat from the Arab market", "look Liana, i made u these scarves myself", "okey i will drive you to the mosque for your break fast and tarawih prayer", "Liana!! What had gotten into you?! You should do your prayer and zikir and be grateful to God(everytime i think/talk nonsense)". I cannot thank you enough mom, except i will continue making prayer with the same prayers Prophet Abraham made to his father. May our Maker make us among those who are guided by Him and those who are surrendered to Him. Ameen. You have no idea of how thankful i am to have you as my mother. You are the best mother for me, and no one can ever do better than you as a mother to us.
Some traits of you that need no any justification because either they are too obvious or they are beyond explanation : Very Pretty, but Cute at the same time, Lively, Productive, Versatile, Knowledgable, Fun, Playful, Welcoming, Cheerful, Caring, Talkative, Considerate, Brave, Confident, Curious, Thoughtful, Encouraging, Open minded, Forgiving but not very patient when it comes to straighten me up! hahahaha, i still have a strict asian mom that will shout at me when i make mistakes!
THANK YOU MY SUPERWOMAN, MA PETITE MAMAN!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I AM PROUD TO HAVE YOU AS MY MOTHER. YOU ARE THE BEST MOTHER IN THIS WORLD FOR US! BISOU BISOU!
Writing with Love,
TianaAsSamad.
Bismillah ir-rahman ir-rahim.
Assalamualaikum wbt
Among the first strong vivid memories i had when i was a child was actually my 5th birthday cake, it was a medium size white creamed butter cake bought from the shop, decorated with colourful jellies on top of it and fancy chocolate rice on the side and a cheerful voice singing so loudly and happily, that as if you can almost feel it with hands. "Happy Birthday to you, Adik!". It was my mother, my favourite person since the begining of my existance. I actually could not recall her face in detail, but i do brought the memories of us to all my restless nights, deep down, i just knew i once, had a mother.
She used to hold my hand and take me with her to the groceries shop where we lived in JB. I could clearly see her knocking the window of my box house, that she creatively made for abang & me, and she sent us a full glass of milk each and a full box of Sultanah's raisins, i still remember the times when she made us take the fish oil capsule, that abang and i would be spitting out into the drain later on. I still remember the day when three of us hands in hands across the flood just to go to the Parkson to get me a beautiful red choengsam for the CNY celebration. But then on the way back i cried because i wanted the doctor's toy set, with all her might, she left us somewhere safe telling to my 7y.o brother, "abang jaga adik!" before she ran into the flood again to get us the play set. I could clearly recall the scene of her crying "oh poor adik", freaked out when she saw my head was bleeding from the accident while playing with abang and the boys on that street where we lived. All i could tell is, when i was with her, it was always warm comfort, laughter and fun that we had.
It was a long 8 years gap ( from i was 5y.o until 13y.o ) of our lonely confused childhood without her cheerful lively laughter and her gentle care and love. We managed to meet for the first time in France, for a month we spent time together - you, Juergen ( her husband ), abang and i. And to add on, another 7 years ( 13y.o until 21y.o ) of life without her by our side. All because of the fate had been written by God the Most-knowing, we were suddenly parted, by the cursed devil who continues whispering evil into man's heart since Adam pbuh.
At the begining, it was not easy for us to get along, but down deep inside both hearts, we were longing and crying for each other for too long. But Alhamdulillah praises to the Almighty the Most Loving,Most Generous, when once he clicked our hearts, we just got better naturally from there and it never stops since then. Countless of blessings upon us, He protected us and safeguarded us in His ways.
So on this special day, this is for you dear mother.
Dear Mama,
You said i am strong, but you don't know that you are 100times stronger. Being a single mother at 24 years old with two small children in a foreign land that you know very little about, with neither family by your side nor supports from far, sounded impossible but you made it the best 5 years of my childhood, but wait when you found that to be very strong, wait until fate had knocked the door and your ultimate strength was actually when you had lost us, after 5 years of feeding us, bathing us, napping us, kissed and hugged us every night, you lost us. Your strength was tested to a level of only few can stay put with themselves, only few chosen, brave ones were tested with such a big test. Mom, thank you for staying put and being so strong when you have all the reasons to give up. Truly God is with those who have patience, and all praises to Him.
All the goodness you see in me today is the reflection of your own goodness. You have such an enormous space in your heart filled with kindness. All your life ( from my own observation ), you had been helping other people, even at the hardest moments of your life, you were so fast in lending the helping hand, being a selfless compassion at your best without any interest of your own. As the result of your kindness, God had taken good care and protected your children in a way that no one can possibly foresee it. Be it at the hard times or the easy life, one hand of yours is always readily reserved to help anyone in need without a second of doubt. You always have the kindness towards the misfortune good people, it is obvious when your friends are mostly the one who get oppressed rather than the oppressors, clearly your heart has neither place for the sick-hearted people nor injustice. Nature speaks itself, kindness will always attracted to its alike and vice versa.
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| Beautiful inside out! |
Another trait that everyone can point out when they get to know you is, you are a one very smart woman! My father and your own brothers came to me in person, making a crystal clear statement repeatedly on how brilliant and genius you are since you were small. You can speak minimum 5 languages fluently and another 3 with some difficulties, is perhaps exists only in 1 of ten thousands people. I still remember that french essay ( about blood donation ) you wrote when you were at junior high school, the idea was original, brilliant and beautifully written ( some commentary from mom : this written contest throughout the whole region, all schools entered the contest imposed by the national education contest, and mine was unexpectedly and surprisingly chosen as a winning written essay by the ministry of the education department, due to the very touching content it represented at that time! My french teacher was extremely proud of me, of course! A very nice souvenir in my life now ). Not just from these kind of aspects, you are also very intelligent about the insight of life. You will be the one that come out first to highlight us the efforts of today which will give benefits of tomorrow, and of course your ideas are almost always undeniably out of the box, that it makes people inspired to do the way you do things.
And the trait that i personally admire about you is, you always do the best in everything you do. Be it a common chore, there will always be that 'sophie's twist', you put your thought into, even the smallest thing becomes big by your creativity, artistic imaginations and skillful hands. I can practically see it everywhere, in the food that you cook, your gardening, your sewing, the things you mend, the cards you made me, the handwritting you have, the flowers you arranged, the events that you organized, they are all special, unique and beautiful to me.
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| My symbol of strength, hope and kindness. |
Some traits of you that need no any justification because either they are too obvious or they are beyond explanation : Very Pretty, but Cute at the same time, Lively, Productive, Versatile, Knowledgable, Fun, Playful, Welcoming, Cheerful, Caring, Talkative, Considerate, Brave, Confident, Curious, Thoughtful, Encouraging, Open minded, Forgiving but not very patient when it comes to straighten me up! hahahaha, i still have a strict asian mom that will shout at me when i make mistakes!
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| My joyful and cheerful mom, it is always lively and fun to be with her! |
THANK YOU MY SUPERWOMAN, MA PETITE MAMAN!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I AM PROUD TO HAVE YOU AS MY MOTHER. YOU ARE THE BEST MOTHER IN THIS WORLD FOR US! BISOU BISOU!
Writing with Love,
TianaAsSamad.
Thanks God ! I am grateful to have you as my daughter ! May God bless you always in your life !
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